Alive

[Prod. by DJ Pain 1]

[Intro]

SL

Parks on the board

Real niggas in the booth, let's go

I got Kdot on the keys

It go (it go)

Check this, listen

[Verse 1]

I got strangers in my face

Beggin' me to take a picture

Still self-centered, they can give a fuck 'bout how a nigga feel

Bitches hang around to hang around even when shit get real

But I ain't left nothin', maybe I should write a different will

They usin' me I'm usin' them, they don't see the angle

Therapeutic, I don't even fuck 'em unless it's painful

Why do all these bitches seem to think they can change Joe?

Judge me all you want I never claim to be an angel

Patriotic, psychotic, obsessive-compulsive, convulsive, neurotic

On narcotics, searchin' for you if you got it

Seein' young blacks gettin' killed weekly that's a moot fact

If these coppers shoot at me, trust me I'mma shoot back

Maybe y'all 'll pray for me

But I don't mean once or even twice, I mean every day for me

So I'm on my knees, there's gotta be a better way for me

Open these windows and these doors but demons stay with me

And baby that's okay with me

[Hook]

I gave you my all, what made you wanna leave?

Fuck with my heart and now it's killin' me

This be enough to make a nigga cry

I wish 'em well until this runnin' dry

They won't ever take me alive

All I ever do is survive

And I know cause they already tried

It's too late cause I've already died

At least inside, they'll never take me alive

[Verse 2]

Lemme get far as fuck away from these niggas

Fuck away from these hoes

Where I'm at now its fuck music I don't wanna rap

I don't wanna perform or host

And my father's sayin' "get it together" and nothin' matters but my health

Hope heaven reserved a section for an addict like myself

Watchin' myself on TV see my knees shaking on that show

Plus the way shorty's life is now, I bet she's rethinking that "no"

She thought she was only sayin' no to marriage

But that "no" is to so much more, now I can't wait to see what her path is

I guess being a wife ain't sound as fun as bein' a bad bitch

Couldn't deal with my habits, wasn't me though you'd been catfish

We're speakin' a different language

Showin' you the signs in morse code

Last time a nigga loved two bitches I lost 'em both

So she scared, try not to get emotionally invested

I know God will find a way for those emotions to get tested

Which is cool, maybe not for me

Front all you want in your heart somewhere

I know there's a spot for me

The sad part is when it's vacant, I'll be gone

How I love you but I hate you

And all you're doing is being the person that I made you

From hateful to graceful

From rageful to grateful

Then God came and snatched that space for you

I tried to save it boo

Everything I caught myself building  to that point was made for two

Writing out the script, wish you'd a told me the page was full

But fuck it, He knows better than I

Regret'll subside, let's sever the ties

After all it's just one less goodbye

[Hook]

[Verse 3]

Lemme get far as fuck away from these bitches

Fuck away from these hoes

Lemme get far as fuck away from my niggas

Lemme get real close to my foes

They tellin' me that I gotta act famous now, etcetera

I been regular, so I feel like an anus now

See all of this time I've just been treatin' y'all accordingly

On an even plane like no one is any less or more than me

But the Lord agrees he said, "keep playin' with fire, if you're Joseph you'll get burned"

I hate second guessing I'll wait 'til the motives get confirmed

(..)

Call from the shorty, we off that bitch, option time

Models, sport some

All these cities, I got to tour one

All these bottles, I got to pour one

All these hoes, i got to call one

Our situation is a tall one, what you gonna do, pour or run?

So I'm spending forty thousand dollars on a time-piece

Help my self esteem and get this shit up off my mind please

Anybody lookin' for me, y'all know where to find me

I be right up Steinway nigga I ain't playing hide and seek

Let that liquor induce ya, then watch how fast it go from a couple niggas on the hookah

To some triggers, to them shooters, everything that's going on is kinda sicker than I'm used to

I'm just wrestling with them snakes, you ever kick it with Medusa?

Let me get the fuck away from these pills

The fuck away from this drinkin'

Let me get the fuck away outta my way

Let me get far as fuck away from my thinkin'

'Till it's better, it's whatever, shit I'm unapologetic

Since all i got is my word nigga tell 'em that i said it

It's Joe

[Hook]

Uhh, uhh, uhh

It go

[Hook]