Ignore Tenderness

I've been trying to Be turned on by you Be turned on by myself Or anything else Been watching porn Lights off, headphones on Right when pleasure begins My education creeps in I've been stripping right down Staring at my own reflection Ever since I was thirteen, I've been Pulled in every direction Such a good student Of all that conflicting advice Go put ice in your mouth Let them slap you about Go on, choke yourself out But leave no room for doubt That you are brave Beneath the sheets, you're just a cave A plastic bucket, or a grave Who said you're not what you get You are what you gave away? I've been thinking back To when things went off track You know that's not what I wanted Is that why I feel haunted? By something small Strong enough to destroy it all If I don't change soon Will it forever eclipse the moon? That keeps me stable Away from all of that advice That put words in my mouth All those drinks on the house Go on, just let it all out But leave no room for doubt That you are brave A little leaf catching a wave Strong but willing to be saved Ignore the tenderness you crave Be naughty but don't misbehave Who said you're not what you get You are what you gave away?