Gothic Babe Tendencies (feat. blackbear)

(You have to wait for the drums to come in) I smoked my first cigarette, my cowboy killer With a few close friends, so cold my hands went numb One girl, she talked about her boyfriend like a god He had a dirty mouth, and we all ate it up And there's someone new I've been seein' That shows me what I've been missin' I never had that high school love But this tastes like sophomore year to me Got me learning all the words to his favorite songs But I've got gothic babe tendencies I always choose the dark I aim for the pain and say "This is just for fun" Oh-oh, I've got gothic baby tendencies I always choose the dark But what if I surrender to the sun? The woods back in my hometown And Friday night blockbuster countdowns How I choose the long way home to pass the beach I wish you'd ask that kind of question The kind that digs for something hidden But I'm not sure you'd like to know that side of me Then you text me from a night club You're out tonight like I was Did you find a new plus one? Young Achilles, you got options Maybe I should just fuck off And let go of the wheel for once But I've got gothic babe tendencies I always choose the dark I aim for the pain and say "This is just for fun" Oh-oh, I've got gothic baby tendencies I always choose the dark But what if I surrender to the sun? Yeah, yeah We got matchin' scars The kind that you pick and scratch and they stay there for life You were in my arms I'm left with this lonely heart and movies in my mind Everything you said is messin' with my head I'm goin' crazy, I don't understand But I can't just pretend you don't sedate me Maybe I feel like I don't deserve your love but you can save me From this self-sabotage, I'm havin' panick attacks now I need Alprazolam, I'm havin' withdrawals I don't know who I am, I was never the same after I got sober from you, yeah Now it's over for you and it's over for me Why do these words hurt so deeply? You were my favorite sunburn now I would like to save For another day I've got gothic babe tendencies I always choose the dark I aim for the pain and say "This is just for fun" Oh-oh, I've got gothic baby tendencies I always choose the dark But what if I surrender to the sun? And I didn't run, run, run, run, run I didn't run, run, run, run, run And I didn't run, run, run, run, run (run) I didn't run, run, run, run, run