Gothic Babe Tendencies (feat. blackbear)

(You have to wait for the drums to come in)
I smoked my first cigarette, my cowboy killer
With a few close friends, so cold my hands went numb
One girl, she talked about her boyfriend like a god
He had a dirty mouth, and we all ate it up
And there's someone new I've been seein'
That shows me what I've been missin'
I never had that high school love
But this tastes like sophomore year to me
Got me learning all the words to his favorite songs
But I've got gothic babe tendencies
I always choose the dark
I aim for the pain and say
"This is just for fun"
Oh-oh, I've got gothic baby tendencies
I always choose the dark
But what if I surrender to the sun?
The woods back in my hometown
And Friday night blockbuster countdowns
How I choose the long way home to pass the beach
I wish you'd ask that kind of question
The kind that digs for something hidden
But I'm not sure you'd like to know that side of me
Then you text me from a night club
You're out tonight like I was
Did you find a new plus one?
Young Achilles, you got options
Maybe I should just fuck off
And let go of the wheel for once
But I've got gothic babe tendencies
I always choose the dark
I aim for the pain and say
"This is just for fun"
Oh-oh, I've got gothic baby tendencies
I always choose the dark
But what if I surrender to the sun?
Yeah, yeah
We got matchin' scars
The kind that you pick and scratch and they stay there for life
You were in my arms
I'm left with this lonely heart and movies in my mind
Everything you said is messin' with my head
I'm goin' crazy, I don't understand
But I can't just pretend you don't sedate me
Maybe I feel like I don't deserve your love but you can save me
From this self-sabotage, I'm havin' panick attacks now
I need Alprazolam, I'm havin' withdrawals
I don't know who I am, I was never the same after I got sober from you, yeah
Now it's over for you and it's over for me
Why do these words hurt so deeply?
You were my favorite sunburn now I would like to save
For another day
I've got gothic babe tendencies
I always choose the dark
I aim for the pain and say
"This is just for fun"
Oh-oh, I've got gothic baby tendencies
I always choose the dark
But what if I surrender to the sun?
And I didn't run, run, run, run, run
I didn't run, run, run, run, run
And I didn't run, run, run, run, run (run)
I didn't run, run, run, run, run