Conflicted

[Intro] These were known as samurai Always been conflicted Always been conflicted [Verse 1] I strain to obtain so I could give more Most dangerous when it was nothin' to live for (Nothin') For that fetty bag, ready to let the SIGs pour Was on nothin' long enough, need a big score The harmony dreamin' had me constantly schemin' Rarely peace, in belly of beast, armed like a demon Singin' tough upbringin', swore it was the hardest A lot of years starvin' before I was an artist Would bring in tomorrow with sorrow, plus the hurt We finally eatin', reapin', it's just dessert It's just, so trust my work, from dusk to dirt Committed rhymes, if you give it time, much is learned Firm, dense, but earn strength with a young stalk Brought hammers to grammar school, hence the gun talk The coke drought made it a cesspool What they hail is stale, need a fresh jewel Enthralled in crime, not more, but nothin' less cruel I track the street, where active eat, the rest drool I speak brass tacks 'til my last acts My gift might be missed if mixed with trash raps The night's whole, slice your loaf if you ain't breakin' bread Some hate, wait, and beg, we take instead [Chorus] Mommy told me, "Be a good boy Need you alive, please survive, you my hood joy" (Please) Pops told me, "Stay strapped, son" (Strapped) "You need the shotty, be a body or catch one" (Catch one) Always been conflicted Always been conflicted (Word) Always been conflicted Always been conflicted [Verse 2] Where you from? During what years? (Years) You from the slum? Where you was upstairs? What you seen? What you been through? (Through) Where your team? What your men do? In over your head, who gon' defend you? (You) Who gon' defend you? Demonstrative, get you popped where the monsters live Your people pay for your mistakes, hope they comp' your wiz From honor, I don't speak drama I don't know about I hold a pen, ain't goin' on how I was growin' out Not blessed divine, wanna live good the rest of mine Fly rewards for my recordings, don't stress the shine Wrote the screenplay, direct, and set design They writin' deadlines, I ain't pressed for time That haste makes waste, you saunter and slip But I find when formin' a script, let's ponder a bit [Chorus] Mommy told me, "Be a good boy Need you alive, please survive, you my hood joy" Pops told me, "Stay strapped, son You need the shotty, be a body or catch one" Always been conflicted Always been conflicted (Hmm) Always been conflicted Always been conflicted [Outro] Always been conflicted I got my good from mom duke I got my math from pop duke, for real Conflicted, uh Always been conflicted