Feel

[Intro: King Iso] Ay, Matt, I had this idea You know I tried to sober up and shit you know... And um... It didn't last too long but I had this idea, that kinda went like this Hold up [Chorus: King Iso] I think that I just got that feel again Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again Now I can feel Everything I was numbing So I couldn't feel nothing Now I feel like a kid again Kid again, kid again [Verse 1: King Iso] Wasn't even a teen yet Before I started puffing on that green, yup Ain't get to live a long lifetime before I seen death Wasn't Rue before 21, euphoria seems next I had a MD2020 MDMA in my hand Young and fucking on grown women before I grew to be a man Sneaking into bars, doing shows in the bathroom coked out with the fans Had school the next day, showed up with a pistol in my pants, say! Someone need to come and get 'em, fam I was sliding on 'em like what's in the pan Do you know what feel like to kill a man Tried to overdose, but God had bigger plans Skipping school and parked the whip and jam Watching OGs shaving down and kill a gram I been smoking Mary since a little lamb Two injections in me, 50 milligrams Forced to me by a doctor, he a middle man They became a Big Pharm, taking over little land It can be hereditary, thinking 'bout your little man Turn us to a zombie, I just wanna be a citizen They be trying to stabilize the head inside us, maybe I don't want you thinking for me Imma sit and I forget a Xan Never learned to hear what I'm feeling, I'm in the mental ward chilling Floating you without the sickness cause I don't give a damn (sheesh!) Two of my sons are in therapy now and it's scaring me how all of it expands I ain't selfish, man I sobered up, out on tour on the bros I spent fifty bands Didn't drink for months or even have a blunt and then I felt the urge to kill again Guess who I'm suppressing since an adolescent just woke up and needs a lending hand because... [Chorus: Matt Phoenix] I think that I just got that feel again Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again Now I can feel Everything I was numbing So I couldn't feel nothing Now I feel like a kid again Kid again, kid again [Verse 2: Matt Phoenix] Don't call my name, they say I'm cursed Took all the pain and I made it worse I'll never know if I'll ever change Kinda hard to grow when you numb on everything! Started later than a lot of y'all but I'm little closer to the finish line Hard to stay above the water when I been claiming to be sober and sipping wine Party people at the venue they probably notice I'm drunk but they didn't mind After the show ask Iso to buy me a drink you know that I already finished mine Never mind there's a kid inside, living lies while I'm grinning wide Give me time and I'll kill my pride have everyone around me picking sides Like isn't he the one with a vicious mind A short fuse temper and a vinti sized Pulled one over, while two weeks sober, and I'm still full of shit like I'm victimized And I'm still so self righteous, lost in the happy I didn't find, yup My ego knows I'm like this, cause and effect are the realest kind Still, have dreams that I'm finna try Still, technique, but it isn't N9ne Feel, so blessed, and I feel no stress Give me all the rest of love living life because... [Chorus: Matt Phoenix] I think that I just got that feel again Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again Now I can feel Everything I was numbing So I couldn't feel nothing Now I feel like a kid again Kid again, kid again [Verse 3: Tech N9ne] Back in the day like ah the freedom As a bad little kid having sex behind a mausoleum With a place to sit on my face and on my rod to skeet 'em If anyone recording me up above I'mma just say god delete 'em Living the evil life, I'mma my numb my senses Even though liquor was expensive Coming to get it I'm jumping over school fences Looking for a temptress Parents are working, I take her home, give her inches I was relentless All the G wenches, the N9na had an immense list I'm really pushing P never be false pretenses You let her go you better know the d trenches That was me at 100% accuracy But the pen and the poison had really mastered me Rapidly player jersey putting up like it was tapestry Leaving me to room to grow, still smoking on the weed, but the liquor I don't need it, no! At the level I beat it, I succeeded though No more fuckboy infidelity, shit I mean it Lots of fruits and vegetables, my chakras well and no doctors sellin' me Ritalin It's me a 360 litty citizen New Life, new Daddah! Four kids then a nigga leveled up and had a (Kid again)