Feel

[Intro: King Iso]

Ay, Matt, I had this idea

You know I tried to sober up and shit you know... And um...

It didn't last too long but I had this idea, that kinda went like this

Hold up

[Chorus: King Iso]

I think that I just got that feel again

Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again

Now I can feel

Everything I was numbing

So I couldn't feel nothing

Now I feel like a kid again

Kid again, kid again

[Verse 1: King Iso]

Wasn't even a teen yet

Before I started puffing on that green, yup

Ain't get to live a long lifetime before I seen death

Wasn't Rue before 21, euphoria seems next

I had a MD2020 MDMA in my hand

Young and fucking on grown women before I grew to be a man

Sneaking into bars, doing shows in the bathroom coked out with the fans

Had school the next day, showed up with a pistol in my pants, say!

Someone need to come and get 'em, fam

I was sliding on 'em like what's in the pan

Do you know what feel like to kill a man

Tried to overdose, but God had bigger plans

Skipping school and parked the whip and jam

Watching OGs shaving down and kill a gram

I been smoking Mary since a little lamb

Two injections in me, 50 milligrams

Forced to me by a doctor, he a middle man

They became a Big Pharm, taking over little land

It can be hereditary, thinking 'bout your little man

Turn us to a zombie, I just wanna be a citizen

They be trying to stabilize the head inside us, maybe I don't want you thinking for me

Imma sit and I forget a Xan

Never learned to hear what I'm feeling, I'm in the mental ward chilling

Floating you without the sickness cause I don't give a damn (sheesh!)

Two of my sons are in therapy now and it's scaring me how all of it expands

I ain't selfish, man I sobered up, out on tour on the bros I spent fifty bands

Didn't drink for months or even have a blunt and then I felt the urge to kill again

Guess who I'm suppressing since an adolescent just woke up and needs a lending hand because...

[Chorus: Matt Phoenix]

I think that I just got that feel again

Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again

Now I can feel

Everything I was numbing

So I couldn't feel nothing

Now I feel like a kid again

Kid again, kid again

[Verse 2: Matt Phoenix]

Don't call my name, they say I'm cursed

Took all the pain and I made it worse

I'll never know if I'll ever change

Kinda hard to grow when you numb on everything!

Started later than a lot of y'all but I'm little closer to the finish line

Hard to stay above the water when I been claiming to be sober and sipping wine

Party people at the venue they probably notice I'm drunk but they didn't mind

After the show ask Iso to buy me a drink you know that I already finished mine

Never mind there's a kid inside, living lies while I'm grinning wide

Give me time and I'll kill my pride have everyone around me picking sides

Like isn't he the one with a vicious mind

A short fuse temper and a vinti sized

Pulled one over, while two weeks sober, and I'm still full of shit like I'm victimized

And I'm still so self righteous, lost in the happy I didn't find, yup

My ego knows I'm like this, cause and effect are the realest kind

Still, have dreams that I'm finna try

Still, technique, but it isn't N9ne

Feel, so blessed, and I feel no stress

Give me all the rest of love living life because...

[Chorus: Matt Phoenix]

I think that I just got that feel again

Put down the drink and drugs so I could feel again

Now I can feel

Everything I was numbing

So I couldn't feel nothing

Now I feel like a kid again

Kid again, kid again

[Verse 3: Tech N9ne]

Back in the day like ah the freedom

As a bad little kid having sex behind a mausoleum

With a place to sit on my face and on my rod to skeet 'em

If anyone recording me up above I'mma just say god delete 'em

Living the evil life, I'mma my numb my senses

Even though liquor was expensive

Coming to get it I'm jumping over school fences

Looking for a temptress

Parents are working, I take her home, give her inches

I was relentless

All the G wenches, the N9na had an immense list

I'm really pushing P never be false pretenses

You let her go you better know the d trenches

That was me at 100% accuracy

But the pen and the poison had really mastered me

Rapidly player jersey putting up like it was tapestry

Leaving me to room to grow, still smoking on the weed, but the liquor I don't need it, no!

At the level I beat it, I succeeded though

No more fuckboy infidelity, shit I mean it

Lots of fruits and vegetables, my chakras well and no doctors sellin' me Ritalin

It's me a 360 litty citizen

New Life, new Daddah!

Four kids then a nigga leveled up and had a (Kid again)