change myself

[Chorus: Kite] Trying to understand why I'm here Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried Silver love in my drink It's so hard, I try so hard to change I try to be okay, I tried afterlife All this pain will once subside [Verse 1: Kite] All my pain will last in the end I wanna change, so hard to change I hid my soul, it's just hard to change Will you save my life? I'll die on my own [Chorus: Kite] Trying to understand why I'm here Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried [Verse 2: quinn] I'm sitting here with all the ghosts in my hallway Thinking about the bettеr days when all the problems fadе away Fifty mil' that's all I want and I'ma go away Goin' somewhere far away, spending all my better days I see the you in me and that shouldn't be possible Run into some obstacles and turn it into particles Lil' angel shawty, she done played me like a cardinal Dove right in my armory and stole right out my arsenal You're playing with my head, you won't get away with that I like to do what I want, if you're okay with that I'm on a short leash, upside down just like a bat My people watching, they plotting my aftermath I'm feeling trapped in like I've got claustrophobia Endless mazes, I'm trapped in my utopia Looking for a fix I bought straight from Cambodia Being left on seen is like my worst phobia