Curtains

[verse] Sometimes I, sometimes I'ma feel I love you Sometimes I'ma feel like fuck you Sometimes I, sometimes I get lost in ego I don't recognise what love do I hate those, uh, nights where I can't take back words Didn't know how to end that convo I hate those, uh, mistakes made but I can't change those True colours do not mean rainbows I think about loving you unconditionally I'm not invincible, I'm scared to see that version of me I'm not dismissing you, the truth is I never want you to leave Only commit to you enough for you to give mе a piece 'Til you peacе out, I double back, back to the street In the meantime, pieces of me, moment's relief that was empty Glass half full, lipstick stains, Fenty Rushing the feels, nothing feel better than that entry Uh, slide to the side then slide up in it when I'm restless I get the feeling you moving on and now I'm pensive Jealousy hits, double the standard, I'm defensive Think of the words I should've said but never mentioned Gave me the cake and I just did what was expected Damn [Chorus] I know my feelings are certain But I don't see how this is working 'Cause I'm scared to pull back the curtain Let you in and let you down Let you down, let you down [verse] Sometimes you, sometimes you were someone to talk to Sometimes I just didn't want to Sometimes you, sometimes you were someone to fall on The only one I knew I could call on Sometimes you, felt like I took you for granted But still stuck around through the hardship I never understood how you did it, but you did it with no complaints Showed me how to love you with no restraints I hate that, I hate that I hold onto trauma Twinning with the traits that I got from my father Pace up and down while I bicker with karma Coulda let my guard down but that feeling alarming I never have the words when you ask me But over instrumental my heart bleeds So, if you ever hear this just call me If you ever hear this know [Chorus] I know my feelings are certain But I don't see how this is working 'Cause I'm scared to pull back the curtain Let you in and let you down Let you down, let you down [bridge] I know my feelings are certain But I don't see how this is working 'Cause I'm scared to pull back the curtain Won't let you in and let you down Let you down, let you down [outro] You try so hard to forget You don't actually remember how many times we've met before The party will continue even if we don't Let go (can we start again?) Lately we've been less than friendly Can we just pretend? You're more than a distant memory If the universe has a plan for us Let's be real for once Let's lean into us