Saturation Diver

A flash above you fading The end of days arrived and went Left you unselected Tethered down A promise kept denied Resurrecting angels high above Would save from drowning A saturation diver Ankles tangled helpless in the line And you wonder will your dead self show The years you spent avoidant and dissociating? Sliding down the slope Were you pressured and extorted? Was it some force beyond control? Or you alone? A TV muted plays disaster films inside an empty home Two brothers standing in a wide shot staring downward in the snow At the mercy of the current Body turns underwater Swallows all of it Tumble in the flow Frames flicker glowing backwards as you go Every moment past projected In the hidden tunnels home There’s the basement of your parents Your siblings on the staircase The ice sheets on the pavement Where you drifting sideways crashed into the snow To you there shaving When the mirror showed a stranger You felt sure he looked familiar Now you wake on the embankment All alone A close-up focused on a woman’s face awake late on her phone All things that everybody knows A muted tv plays disaster films but nobody’s at home Life eternal in repose A body floating in creek below Three fires burning in the snow All things that everybody knows All life eternal in repose The way the bodies started glowing All around you floating upward On the ground below No beam of light to take you home Speaker 1 & 2: If there was anything that you had to do over again, Is there something you would change, something you'd do differently? I don't think so. I think about my whole life that way. When I look back over my life I don't think there's anything I would change. I think with the knowledge I had at the time that I did things, and made decisions. And uh, I'm sure that when you get there later on you review what you've done and if you- and that's always easy to say, "I would've done something differently." I don't think I would've. I think- I think that I did the best I could with the knowledge I had at the time I did. and I think that's, I think I live with that. I'm never gonna look back and say "I should've done this, I should've done that." That's too easy to do