Reluctantly Dead

The blood on my hands is like drugs up my nose I've been confused for someone who's in control Of all of the things that'll happen anyway So I'll just continue on the path that I hate Cuz I'm gonna find my way I've been grabbing at sand just to watch it slip away I put both my hands up and I started to pray That you ain't like me And that you'd let me walk away But I'll understand it if you chose to kill me Would've probably done the same I Would've probably done the same You believe that they came here to protect you But see I would rather run cause now the law results in a death Won't you understand that you've got control See I'll be confused for someone you'll never know Cause all of those things were gonna happen anyway Somewhere within you lies the one that you hate Im gonna fuck myself today I'd rather fuck myself today (Yeah) You believe that they came here to protect you But see I would rather run cause now the law results in a death But you believe that they came here to protect you See I am not the one cause I will be reluctantly dead I'll never be alone again But do you realise you're my only friend I feel at home again Home again I'll never be alone again But I felt that I'm my only friend I feel at home again Home again And this is all pretend You believe that they came here to protect you But see I would rather run cause now the law results in a death You believe that they came here to protect you But see I am not the one cause i will be reluctantly dead