Reluctantly Dead

The blood on my hands is like drugs up my nose
I've been confused for someone who's in control
Of all of the things that'll happen anyway
So I'll just continue on the path that I hate
Cuz I'm gonna find my way

I've been grabbing at sand just to watch it slip away
I put both my hands up and I started to pray
That you ain't like me
And that you'd let me walk away
But I'll understand it if you chose to kill me
Would've probably done the same
I Would've probably done the same

You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I would rather run cause now the law results in a death

Won't you understand that you've got control
See I'll be confused for someone you'll never know
Cause all of those things were gonna happen anyway
Somewhere within you lies the one that you hate

Im gonna fuck myself today
I'd rather fuck myself today (Yeah)
You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I would rather run cause now the law results in a death

But you believe that they came here to protect you
See I am not the one cause I will be reluctantly dead

I'll never be alone again
But do you realise you're my only friend
I feel at home again
Home again

I'll never be alone again
But I felt that I'm my only friend
I feel at home again
Home again
And this is all pretend

You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I would rather run cause now the law results in a death
You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I am not the one cause i will be reluctantly dead