Fig Tree

[Intro] Another day gone underneath my fig tree Grey as everyone's dreams, as thin as the leaves around me As I'm left to see my fruit dropping Dead on the ground by my feet Almost nothing left to eat, holding onto belief Another life must be somewhere up in the leaves The best path must be the one I can't see If I'm left to be, I'll stay here Just watching everything I could be Die in front of mе and I don't want to see, no [Refrain] No [Verse 1] Gold like Versace, I lovе it when he slaps me If I fall, catch me, but they never catch me That's me, in the backseat, looking nasty Looking plastic when they pass me You know I like you, drive to the drive-through Drinks with the ice cubes, said you think that I'm cute And then when it's time to, I'll leave you where I find you It's hard to decline you when I'm too high to And it's okay if you can't reply to me I'm too weak, I’m too shy to speak Say I'm fine, but I cried for weeks Say you like me, what’s on your mind but me? There's a big hole right inside of me But I feel whole each time you write to me I'm scared, but scared feels right to me Why do I want him when he's not right for me? [Refrain] No ⠀ [Chorus] I try to live as if I want to live I try to block it out, it still comes pouring in I'm changing, I'm changing I'm changing, I'm changing I try to live as if I want to live I try to block it out, it still comes pouring in I'm changing, I'm changing I'm changing, I'm changing [Bridge] Don't die now, you need to leave the house (House) Don't fall asleep now, the sun is almost out (Out) So when is it my turn? (Oh-oh) It's not safe to thrive, it's too late to hide And I'm, I'm yet to see the worst So tell me, when is my turn? (Oh) [Refrain] (Tell me) (Tell me you love me) [Verse 2] Sometimes when I talk to my friends I feel more alone and that doesn't make sense Sometimes I'd be lying if I said that I don't think I'd be better off dead If I died, would I make a headline? If I died, would anybody be surprised? If I died, would they love me online? Who'd I be remembered by? Who'd forget me in time? Side eyes, toss my hair to the side I'm fine, everybody's going to die That's fine, I'm with you in another life That's nice, we met before we died Side eyes, toss my hair to the side I'm fine, everybody's going to die That's fine, I'm with you in another life That's nice, we met before we— ⠀ [Chorus] I try to live as if I want to live I try to block it out, it still comes pouring in I'm changing, I'm changing I'm changing, I'm changing I try to live as if I want to live I try to block it out, it still comes pouring in I'm changing, I'm changing I'm changing, I'm changing [Outro] Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me Tell me you love me