Ruminating

I'm giving up on getting sleep tonight It's 4 AM, and I'm in fight-or-flight Ruminating, ruminating, ruminating, ruminating And I can't shake the image of her naked On top of you, and I'm dissociated Ruminating, ruminating, ruminating, ruminating And I'm not hateful, but you make me hate her She gets to sleep next to my medicator You're mine, mine, mine, mine You're mine, mine, mine, mine You're mine, mine, mine, mine You're mine, mine, mine And now I'm ruminating, ruminating Now I'm in my head Ruminating, ruminating All the things you said Why can't you wait for me to come home? This conversation's too big for a phone call Ruminating, ruminating I've been up all night Did you kiss her on the lips and look into her eyes? Did you have fun? Now that it's done Baby, won't you tell me that I'm still your number one? 'Cause you're my number one I told you, all of this has been too brutal You told me that you felt the same, it's mutual And then you came out with this line so crucial Yeah, "If it has to happen, baby, do you want to know?" If it has to happen, baby, do you want to know? If it has to happen, baby, do you want to know? I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know But what a line, line, line What a fucking line, line, line What a fucking line, line, line What a fucking line, line, line What a fucking line, line, line What a fucking line What a fucking line Ruminating, ruminating Now I'm in my head Ruminating, ruminating All the things you said Why can't you wait for me to come home? This conversation's too big for a phone call Ruminating, ruminating I've been up all night Did you kiss her on the lips and look into her eyes? Did you have fun? Now that it's done Baby, won't you tell me that I'm still your number one? 'Cause you're my number one Ruminating, ruminating Now I'm in my head Ruminating, ruminating All the things you said Why can't you wait for me to come home? This conversation's too big for a phone call Ruminating, ruminating I've been up all night Did you kiss her on the lips, and look into her eyes? Did you have fun? Now that it's done Baby, won't you tell me I'm still your number one?