Lonely

I was lonely making an album, attempted it four times Lost my confidence and you wouldn't believe why Sitting in the studio with my head in my hands Thinking what am I to do with this music I can't write? Team falling apart and I'm caught in the crossfire You selling me lies and saying I must buy Messing with my mental that I've worked hard to protect It's causing pains in my chest, so it's best that I cut ties Tryna make an album means baring my whole truth Unpacking the fuckery I'm trying to heal through Imagine telling it all to somebody you trust Then that same somebody then holds it against you Hmm It's almost like that somebody's trying to end you I was lonely making an album 'Til I realized I'm all I needed to get through So lonely To be alone A race against time But take it slowly Playing on my weakness And that's unholy I'll pray for you God is who we both need I was lonely making an album, I ran into mad blocks Tryna find that girl everybody's a fan of Couldn't even say what I thought was good anymore Whether I'm hands on or hands off Maybe music just isn't meant for me anymore Maybe I'll erase all these memories from my core Maybe I'll do more acting and less rapping 'Cos I don't even know who I'm meant to be anymore Lonely making an album is tackling all doubt I'm used to making it with-, can I do it without? No figure of speech, I get it by any means No sucker is in my genes, yet still having more doubts On top of that, I'm dealing with somebody who's obsessed with more clout I was lonely making an album 'til I realised my story's all I can pour out So lonely To be alone A race against time But take it slowly Playing on my weakness And that's unholy I'll pray for you (pray, pray for) God is who we both need I'm spinning, up away I'm spinning, up away I'm spinning, up away Up away, up away I'm spinning (spinning), up away I'm spinning, up away (spinning, spinning) I'm spinning, up away (oh, I'm spinning, spinning, spinning) Up away, up away Spinning, up away (spinning, spinning) I'm spinning, up away ((oh, I'm sstill spinnig) I'm spinning, up away (oh, I'm spinning, spinning) Up away, up away (oh, I'm) I'm spinning, up away I'm spinning, up away I'm spinning, up away Up away, up away I'm spinning, up away I'm spinning, up away