PTSD

They gave me Sertraline and Ritalin when I said I wanna die I think the meds are finally kicking in, I can't cum and I can't cry Guess feeling numb don't feel as bad as feeling hollow all the time When I see your mum and dad, I tell them both I'm doing fine But every day I see your face, it hasn't aged since we were teens You are the ghost who haunts the most I've lived the life of Halloweens And every night If I can sleep, you bleed to death in all my dreams I can't help thinking all the time What if the best days Of a bad life came When we were a mess mate And they passed us by Sometimes your death feels like a level from an old video game I replay it from the check point, but it always ends the same There's a glitch within the system, says my progress can't be saved Player 2 has quit the mission, Game Over I'm afraid These days my life is like a sitcom that I rewatch through a screen I hear canned laughter from the rafters I know the lines to every scene But the actor playing Louis, he got recast recently He's not as handsome or as funny as he used to be What if the best days Of a bad life came When we were a mess mate And they passed us by What if the best years (P-T-S-D) That I had left here (P-T-S-D) Were wiped away with tears (P-T-S-D) The night that we died (P-T-S-D) The night that we