PTSD

They gave me Sertraline and Ritalin when I said I wanna die
I think the meds are finally kicking in, I can't cum and I can't cry
Guess feeling numb don't feel as bad as feeling hollow all the time
When I see your mum and dad, I tell them both I'm doing fine

But every day I see your face, it hasn't aged since we were teens
You are the ghost who haunts the most
I've lived the life of Halloweens
And every night If I can sleep, you bleed to death in all my dreams
I can't help thinking all the time

What if the best days
Of a bad life came
When we were a mess mate
And they passed us by

Sometimes your death feels like a level from an old video game
I replay it from the check point, but it always ends the same
There's a glitch within the system, says my progress can't be saved
Player 2 has quit the mission, Game Over I'm afraid

These days my life is like a sitcom that I rewatch through a screen
I hear canned laughter from the rafters
I know the lines to every scene
But the actor playing Louis, he got recast recently
He's not as handsome or as funny as he used to be

What if the best days
Of a bad life came
When we were a mess mate
And they passed us by

What if the best years (P-T-S-D)
That I had left here (P-T-S-D)
Were wiped away with tears (P-T-S-D)
The night that we died (P-T-S-D)

The night that we