Ambient Heat

ambient heat moving closer to me ambient heat in the bend of my sheets ambient heat ambient heat a palette of tools to puncture to prime to pin up to pause arms crossed trying to picture to pitch to resist ambient heat ambient heat who do I place in that hot seat the kid the kid that I was too afraid to meet who skirts around the edge of my fear with grace desire death beat after beat after beat after rapturous beat ambient heat ambient heat and over here it’s cake for breakfast over here it’s cake for lunch waste not want not a knot a knot a knot I know I know I know I know ambient heat ambient heat a frame a guise oh god oh look I’m making a song I’m making a song about ambient heat that keeps that keeps ambient heat that keeps that keeps dangle that hook dangle that hook I’m dressed for bed I’m giving up my looks whether I like it or not I’m not as I should be bee no wait it’s a wasp to keep me awake see I’m brave after the sting but not in the wake of waking up to a swollen foot to the end of a book to the beginning of another that talks about a time in which my mother my father will no longer be there and who shall I ask who should care and shouldn’t I be someone to receive the reaching the reaching the reaching ambient heat moving closer to me ambient heat in the bend of my sheets a sound a death sentence a scientific poetic entrance exit fix it fix it fix it