Pity Party - Pitiful Version

[Verse 1] I love the way I really hate myself Profit off a lack of mental health My mood shows up on a conveyor belt It's crushin', my guts are on the floor I said I wanted to get a normal job I romanticize a life I think I want Until I'm handin' you the bill You say you used to like my band [Pre Chorus] Is this forever? Am I a name that you'll remember? [Chorus] It's all just a pity party Oh, what a joy, what a crowd I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry" 'Cause it's embarrassing now It's a parody of pleasure Lips big and red like a clown It's all just a pity party Cry for me or get out [Verse 2] It's crazy how I almost died this year And now I'm shotgunnin' my very first beer And dad keeps tellin' me that his end is near Am I dyin', waitin' for him to die? I'll starve my body for thе seventeenth time I said I atе my lunch, well, what's another lie? I'm over being mediocre I wanna be smaller and smarter or just okay [Pre Chorus] Don't need forever Am I a name that you'll remember? Mm-mm [Chorus] It's all just a pity party Oh, what a joy, what a crowd I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry" 'Cause it's embarrassing now It's a parody of pleasure Lips big and red like a clown It's all just a pity party So cry for me or get out [Bridge] Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh I hate that I keep pushing friends away I'm all or nothing 'til I'm alone and gray Am I missin' something? Are you scared to stay? Can you come over and make me feel like shit? I promise that I won't cut my arms 'Cause I'm so sick of havin' long sleeves on my body I'll throw a pity party Leave your problems at the door, 'cause it's about me Until it's over And my ex is crying on my shoulder [Outro] It's all just a pity party Oh, what a joy, what a crowd I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry" 'Cause it's embarrassing now