[Verse 1]
I love the way I really hate myself
Profit off a lack of mental health
My mood shows up on a conveyor belt
It's crushin', my guts are on the floor
I said I wanted to get a normal job
I romanticize a life I think I want
Until I'm handin' you the bill
You say you used to like my band
[Pre Chorus]
Is this forever?
Am I a name that you'll remember?
[Chorus]
It's all just a pity party
Oh, what a joy, what a crowd
I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry"
'Cause it's embarrassing now
It's a parody of pleasure
Lips big and red like a clown
It's all just a pity party
Cry for me or get out
[Verse 2]
It's crazy how I almost died this year
And now I'm shotgunnin' my very first beer
And dad keeps tellin' me that his end is near
Am I dyin', waitin' for him to die?
I'll starve my body for thе seventeenth time
I said I atе my lunch, well, what's another lie?
I'm over being mediocre
I wanna be smaller and smarter or just okay
[Pre Chorus]
Don't need forever
Am I a name that you'll remember? Mm-mm
[Chorus]
It's all just a pity party
Oh, what a joy, what a crowd
I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry"
'Cause it's embarrassing now
It's a parody of pleasure
Lips big and red like a clown
It's all just a pity party
So cry for me or get out
[Bridge]
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
I hate that I keep pushing friends away
I'm all or nothing 'til I'm alone and gray
Am I missin' something? Are you scared to stay?
Can you come over and make me feel like shit?
I promise that I won't cut my arms
'Cause I'm so sick of havin' long sleeves on my body
I'll throw a pity party
Leave your problems at the door, 'cause it's about me
Until it's over
And my ex is crying on my shoulder
[Outro]
It's all just a pity party
Oh, what a joy, what a crowd
I'll tell you, "I'm, oh, so sorry"
'Cause it's embarrassing now
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