Shadows

[Verse 1: MANIK MC] I'm billing up in Clissold Park Kicked out the crib again Every other night Sofa surfing at a different friend's Caring for your parents Gets so hard tryna live with them It's part of the life Resenting all the time you have to give to them Tensions start to rise Divides growing bigger They say that time heals But time can't fix her Start feeling anger Know that you shouldn't be Envying what others have Wondering what could've been Back up in these streets again Traipsing through East again Had to duck my yard 'Cause we gone and had beef again She started acting crazy Telling me to leave again I'm packing up some garms Walking Stokey high-street again [Pre-Chorus: MANIK MC] Ay yo it's me again, can I crash at yours or borrow p again? It's just that circular lifestyle, had to get my head clear, had to sort my life out [Chorus: MANIK MC] It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim And yeah it's only growing weaker Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim And when that love gets no easier The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist Or when you're trying to replace this Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin Aware of the time that's remaining [Verse 2: Loyle Carner] I said you wouldn't understand Uh, I need my mother's hand Uh, don't need no greed from no other man Saying all he need is another grand And so I snapped, she snapped back like a rubber band Boom I'm out of the house, different couch The same words from a different mouth Uh, saying all we need is to spit it out Cause she's the one I couldn't live without Just another browning Uh, they say I'm clowning Trust, am I waving or am I drowning? I can't stay, can't blame my surroundings But can't forget the day that they found him I could've move mountains Uh, instead I stood still I couldn't move, didn't look real Don't give a fuck how you feel It's too ill.. [Chorus: Loyle Carner & MANIK MC] It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim And yeah it's only growing weaker Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim And when that love gets no easier The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist Or when you're trying to replace this Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin Aware of the time that's remaining [Verse 3: MANIK MC] Sat in the kitchen with the lights off 4 in the morning and I can't sleep Cause every time I drift off it feels like I can't breathe Hear my ribs bouncing with my heartbeat Then my vision slows again It's like I froze again Clutching at my chest Feeling like it's turned to stone again And then that image shifts Sat up on that bridge side, spinning sticks Trade my dreams for your secrets Then that waves turn to static Reminiscing on young MANIK lighting zoots off the matchsticks Now we're determined and it's hardly planning And if they never heard me it hardly happened I'm standing knee-deep in madness Trying to pull it loose In the ICU Hoping mumsy's pulling through, yeah Hoping mumsy's pulling through, yeah Cause we're desensitised, but we ain't bulletproof [Chorus: MANIK MC] It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim And yeah it's only growing weaker Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim And when that love gets no easier The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist Or when you're trying to replace this Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin Aware of the time that's remaining