Shadows

[Verse 1: MANIK MC]

I'm billing up in Clissold Park

Kicked out the crib again

Every other night

Sofa surfing at a different friend's

Caring for your parents

Gets so hard tryna live with them

It's part of the life

Resenting all the time you have to give to them

Tensions start to rise

Divides growing bigger

They say that time heals

But time can't fix her

Start feeling anger

Know that you shouldn't be

Envying what others have

Wondering what could've been

Back up in these streets again

Traipsing through East again

Had to duck my yard

'Cause we gone and had beef again

She started acting crazy

Telling me to leave again

I'm packing up some garms

Walking Stokey high-street again

[Pre-Chorus: MANIK MC]

Ay yo it's me again, can I crash at yours or borrow p again?

It's just that circular lifestyle, had to get my head clear, had to sort my life out

[Chorus: MANIK MC]

It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim

And yeah it's only growing weaker

Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim

And when that love gets no easier

The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist

Or when you're trying to replace this

Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin

Aware of the time that's remaining

[Verse 2: Loyle Carner]

I said you wouldn't understand

Uh, I need my mother's hand

Uh, don't need no greed from no other man

Saying all he need is another grand

And so I snapped, she snapped back like a rubber band

Boom I'm out of the house, different couch

The same words from a different mouth

Uh, saying all we need is to spit it out

Cause she's the one I couldn't live without

Just another browning

Uh, they say I'm clowning

Trust, am I waving or am I drowning?

I can't stay, can't blame my surroundings

But can't forget the day that they found him

I could've move mountains

Uh, instead I stood still

I couldn't move, didn't look real

Don't give a fuck how you feel

It's too ill..

[Chorus: Loyle Carner & MANIK MC]

It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim

And yeah it's only growing weaker

Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim

And when that love gets no easier

The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist

Or when you're trying to replace this

Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin

Aware of the time that's remaining

[Verse 3: MANIK MC]

Sat in the kitchen with the lights off

4 in the morning and I can't sleep

Cause every time I drift off it feels like I can't breathe

Hear my ribs bouncing with my heartbeat

Then my vision slows again

It's like I froze again

Clutching at my chest

Feeling like it's turned to stone again

And then that image shifts

Sat up on that bridge side, spinning sticks

Trade my dreams for your secrets

Then that waves turn to static

Reminiscing on young MANIK lighting zoots off the matchsticks

Now we're determined and it's hardly planning

And if they never heard me it hardly happened

I'm standing knee-deep in madness

Trying to pull it loose

In the ICU

Hoping mumsy's pulling through, yeah

Hoping mumsy's pulling through, yeah

Cause we're desensitised, but we ain't bulletproof

[Chorus: MANIK MC]

It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim

And yeah it's only growing weaker

Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim

And when that love gets no easier

The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist

Or when you're trying to replace this

Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin

Aware of the time that's remaining