I'm Trying

She said I'm not pointing fingers He said yes you are Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't And if I'd told you I'd been walking Out in the dark night thinking Would you take as truth this alcoholic's word? Oh I can't change, what's done is done But I can tell you this Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins And I need you to hold on to While this part of me is dying Though I haven't kicked the demons that haunt me I'm trying, I'm trying She sat down on the floor and said I wish that I was stronger Right now I feel as fragile as glass And I want to believe you Believe what's held you has freed you And I hate these doubts that keep on coming back My parents think I'm crazy for hanging on this long But there's nothing I want more for us Than to prove to them they're wrong And I don't want to be afraid I don't wanna think you're lying And though I haven't found the faith that I need I'm trying, I'm trying He asks do you want me to leave? Cause if you do you know I will But she says, much to his disbelief No, I love you still Oh, I love you still He said I don't know why I've been the fool But I can tell you this Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins Then he dropped down to his knees By now they both were crying He said, I haven't been the man I want to be But I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying