I'm Trying

She said I'm not pointing fingers

He said yes you are

Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't

And if I'd told you I'd been walking

Out in the dark night thinking

Would you take as truth this alcoholic's word?

Oh I can't change, what's done is done

But I can tell you this

Not a day goes by that

I don't curse myself and all my sins

And I need you to hold on to

While this part of me is dying

Though I haven't kicked the demons that haunt me

I'm trying, I'm trying

She sat down on the floor and said

I wish that I was stronger

Right now I feel as fragile as glass

And I want to believe you

Believe what's held you has freed you

And I hate these doubts that keep on coming back

My parents think I'm crazy for hanging on this long

But there's nothing I want more for us

Than to prove to them they're wrong

And I don't want to be afraid

I don't wanna think you're lying

And though I haven't found the faith that I need

I'm trying, I'm trying

He asks do you want me to leave?

Cause if you do you know I will

But she says, much to his disbelief

No, I love you still

Oh, I love you still

He said I don't know why I've been the fool

But I can tell you this

Not a day goes by that

I don't curse myself and all my sins

Then he dropped down to his knees

By now they both were crying

He said, I haven't been the man I want to be

But I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying