Vices

Drowning myself every night Me versus me has always been my biggest fight I've been so confused for so long And the answers always seem so far out of sight So I fill it up, fill it up one more time So when everything is wrong at least I still feel right I'm in the tunnel but I can't see the light I just want to feel whole again So I can let you in I just want to feel whole again I just want to feel whole Oh where is my self control? Where is my self control? I've been thinking this could be the end of me Who is this person in the mirror I see? And I have come so far, thought I was so strong The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long I never thought this would be me But now I'm on the verge of self destruction How could this happen to me? I've never been the type to run from anything, run from anything So sick and tired of wondering where my morals have gone My father didn't raise me to become this Where did I go wrong? There is not much left of me I can't feel the ground beneath my feet There is not much left of me I let everyone around me down And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle Just to block out the sound God I need you now! I've been thinking this could be the end of me Who is this person in the mirror I see? And I have come so far, thought I was so strong The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long This is my vice, this is me weak I need your love to erase this doubt I need your hand to pull me out Sometimes I feel like I will never learn 'Cause the bottle's always there when I have nowhere else to turn Will I ever learn? Will I ever learn? I take another sip The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit This can't be all there is And I've been thinking this could be the end of me Who is this person in the mirror I see? And I have come so far, thought I was so strong The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long And the only one to blame is me Who have I become? This is my desperate shout Pull me out! Pull me out! God I need you now!