Identity

I struggle with myself and my identity The drugs seem to help they my amenity I said I needed help you were not there for me You said you were my friend but your an enemy I struggle with myself and my identity The drugs seem to help they my amenity I said I needed help you were not there for me You said you were my friend but your an enemy I hide my feelings don't want hurt anyone close I don't wanna bring you into my mess so it's better you don't know I know that I might've have messed up but everybody fucks up Open up my wound even though I know its a deep cut Holding this shit in but I know enough is enough Never wanna talk about it never wanna discuss Fall into this mindset I can't shake it I can't leave Don't let anyone into my life I think it's bad for me Keep my thoughts inside my head don't wanna fuck up make a scene I don't trust a lot of people because I always get deceived Sick and tired I don't wanna be the nice guy You hurt me bad so now you're gonna pay a high price I shoulda seen it coming, coming in my hindsight I'm losing track of the time look at how time flies Always seem to forget I always seem to regret Cutting everyone off don't wanna talk wanna connect Lipstick on my neck I miss it know I regret Cigarettes on my lips smell chemicals on my breath Telling tales of fantasy Slowly fall into catastrophe I slowly burn in agony My tears will fall stain on my tee You got me in your trance and I can't seem to shake it No one ever wants to listen keep my mouth closed I won't say shit I struggle with myself and my identity The drugs seem to help they my amenity I said I needed help you were not there for me You said you were my friend but your an enemy I struggle with myself and my identity The drugs seem to help they my amenity I said I needed help you were not there for me You said you were my friend but your an enemy Tell but no one knows Feel this way don't show Hold your words don't choke Keep it in control Tell but no one knows Feel this way don't show Hold your words don't choke Keep it in control Scars on my body but I think they are a keepsake Tryna be nice to everybody everyone wanna be fake Thankful for my friends and my family know I appreciate Know that I need help cuz I been trapped inside this bad place Depression coming in and don't know if it'll stop Self confidence it comes up and it drops Don't know if it's worth it's worth the talk I don't wanna drag you into this at all