Maybe When I'm Ready

[Verse 1] There's a fire in our house and it never goes out Never lets me sleep, it leaves ash in my mouth And I know it makes you wonder who I'm thinking about It's so heavy [Verse 2] I'm throwing water, tryna make it stop And you're waiting in the bedroom, tryna get me off And it's hard to be proud when it feels like a loss It's so heavy [Chorus] Maybe when I'm ready I'll finally leave And we'll both be broken but I'll get to breathe Maybe when I’m ready I'll go find my heart She's waiting patiently She knows that it's been hard She knows just what I need I need to find my love 'cause I've been half asleep She's waving in the dark She's waving just for me [Verse 3] We go out, there's a girl and she's looking at me And I wanna talk to her but I know that you'll see And it cuts you inside, it cuts you so deep It's so heavy [Verse 4] There's a match in your hand and you're lighting up a joint You scream at me and then you try to blame me for your choices I don't know who to trust when the voice in my head is unsteady [Chorus] Maybe when I'm ready you'll finally leave And we'll both be broken but I'll get to breathe Maybe when I’m ready I'll go find my heart She's waiting patiently She knows that it's been hard She knows just what I need I need to find my love 'cause I've been half asleep She's waving in the dark She's waving just for me [Outro] Maybe when I'm ready I'll go find my heart She's waiting patiently She knows that it's been hard She knows just what I need