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[Prelude] I get drunk I get high (so high) No thought in my mind Each day could be The last I see [Verse 1] Head ain't straight Bed ain't made Ain't got head in days But never threw in the mic if it was handed had to do what was right Even if I′m getting booed tonight I'm getting booed tonight I′m with my crew tonight Even just me and Sammy were my crew tonight I got a life to live say it like I had a wife and kids And I don't but I won't if this is how my life persists I gotta wipe them prints Got to move on let go of the life I lived I′ve got a bone to pick I got a zone to get Ain't you gotta let me hone this shit [Chorus] If and when I get my shit together, find my center Get in my prime Only time could tell ya If and when or will this be me till the bitter end As the gods cry rise my umbrella Well I prayed for rain, stayed my self, shit don't stay the same If and when I make a change, stake a claim If and when I and I won't know till that change is made Shit I'll try anything to take away the pain [Verse 2] Apologetic or not If you got it I get it If not I got it Get out the spot Dip You could talk your whole shit But shit always gotta give the credit to Akh Salt and pepper with the ketchup on top For those days that was the only thing my ass would get up and cop It was bacon egg and cheese or bacon lettuce with the cheddar and pop Soda on the side but shorty always tryna make eat better and stop All of the drinkin′ what is she thinkin' Really what better than shots Until you get up your head in a knot No bread in your pocket shit In bed with a bop [Verse 3] Or on the A on the last stop out in Far Rock Wake up face covered in snot and the place all covered with cops Yeah that's a ticket now that′s on top Of all the bridges you burnt when you was all sauced All of the friends lost, all of the ends gone Mm mm But paid the cost to be the boss Paid the cost to be the don Who you? Yeah me motherfucker, the one with no teeth motherfucker You goin' see Told the homies growth is key, lock it down throw the key On these sucker MCs word to mother every word I mutter tryna seize A single moment and how it seems, a single breeze The birds and the bees Here and now you heard it from me Which version of me do I need And which is a burden to be Shit we gonna certainly see [Chorus] If and when I get my shit together find my center Get in my prime Only time could tell ya If and when or will this be me till the bitter end As the gods cry rise my umbrella Well I prayed for rain, stayed my self, shit don't stay the same If and when I make a change stake a claim If and when I and I won't know till that change is made Shit I ′ll try anything to take away the pain [Outro] Let it be, bad bitch Chemistry, I have this But savage Rather, chemically imbalanced Shit might ruin a life Shit I ruined mine twice Left it in ruins Any advice Cause I ain't doing shit right