Sick Joke

Don't wake me up It's the best that I've felt in weeks And to be completely honest I'd rather be happily dead or asleep Sit back and listen Close your eyes if you feel it 'Cause I'm questioning everything It's affecting all my decisions I saw you in the mirror And switched up my rhythm Am I chasing a dream or am I caught in the middle of it? Sometimes I wonder If life is some sick joke Will I wake up and it's over? No, I'm still here and I'm not dead (Still here and I'm not dead) And most days it all feels the same I can't tell no difference in pleasure and pain And it makes me sick, sick joke Like life is shoving its fingers to the back of my throat And sometimes I wonder If life is some sick joke Will I wake up and it's over? No, I'm still here and I'm not dead And I'll hold on to a moment Like a sad kid to a blanket Would you tell me that I'm okay? That I'm still here and I'm not dead? (Still here and I'm not dead) (Still here and I'm not dead) Sit back and listen Close your eyes if you feel it 'Cause I'm questioning everything It's affecting all my decisions I saw you in the mirror And switched up my rhythm Am I chasing a dream or am I caught in the middle of it? And some day I'll find you Like an old key to a locked door Is it all just some sick joke? Am I still here? 'Cause I can't tell Sometimes I wonder If life is some sick joke Will I wake up and it's over? No, I'm still here and I'm not dead And I'll hold on to a moment Like a sad kid to a blanket Would you tell me that I'm okay? That I'm still here and I'm not dead?