Sick Joke

Don't wake me up
It's the best that I've felt in weeks
And to be completely honest
I'd rather be happily dead or asleep
Sit back and listen
Close your eyes if you feel it
'Cause I'm questioning everything
It's affecting all my decisions
I saw you in the mirror
And switched up my rhythm
Am I chasing a dream or am I caught in the middle of it?
Sometimes I wonder
If life is some sick joke
Will I wake up and it's over?
No, I'm still here and I'm not dead
(Still here and I'm not dead)
And most days it all feels the same
I can't tell no difference in pleasure and pain
And it makes me sick, sick joke
Like life is shoving its fingers to the back of my throat
And sometimes I wonder
If life is some sick joke
Will I wake up and it's over?
No, I'm still here and I'm not dead
And I'll hold on to a moment
Like a sad kid to a blanket
Would you tell me that I'm okay?
That I'm still here and I'm not dead?
(Still here and I'm not dead)
(Still here and I'm not dead)
Sit back and listen
Close your eyes if you feel it
'Cause I'm questioning everything
It's affecting all my decisions
I saw you in the mirror
And switched up my rhythm
Am I chasing a dream or am I caught in the middle of it?
And some day I'll find you
Like an old key to a locked door
Is it all just some sick joke?
Am I still here? 'Cause I can't tell
Sometimes I wonder
If life is some sick joke
Will I wake up and it's over?
No, I'm still here and I'm not dead
And I'll hold on to a moment
Like a sad kid to a blanket
Would you tell me that I'm okay?
That I'm still here and I'm not dead?