Riddled Mind

I just can’t see the way Yet you push me away Hit the bottom just to see if I feel at all Leave it at bay they say It’ll be okay Get ahold of yourself it'll be fine They showed me choices They sold me binds and poisons Progress - Rebounds, I’m going around and around now I’m rarely in my state of mind I’m faded maybe I’ll take my time I’m rarely in my state of mind I’m faded maybe you'll see this time This is all I know Another rabbit hole Try to make my way out But I’m falling down When I try to let go I lose all control Got to make it out While I'm wide awake It feels like The weights on me And I can't breath but still I Break away from what brings me shame When it's all over Till I wake to the same day And its over my shoulder I know I can't be like that I will not turn back I look down at what comes for me And I take a round As hidden shadows just lurk the reefs Of my own mind I’m rarely in my state of mind I’m faded maybe I’ll take my time I’m rarely in my state of mind I’m faded maybe you'll see this time This is all I know Another rabbit hole Try to make my way out But I’m falling down When I try to let go I lose all control Got to make it out While I'm wide awake Tell me all about it How words froze at your lips I don’t want to believe you’d say that (I'm drowning now) Tell me all about it How you stood and went stiff While I’m trapped in the ceiling with no way out Medicated, aggravated, I think I’ve lost my mind Self sedated, by these pills man I feel I’m not alive When everyday is a struggle I feel like giving up But I just got to dig deep and know that i'll be strong enough This muscle tension that keeps in question my riddled mind I hate these pills that I take I feel i'm so confined Blood clot and shot with these constant thoughts that I'm wrong for Clouds I don't ask for I'm limb torn