Riddled Mind

I just can’t see the way

Yet you push me away

Hit the bottom just to see if I feel at all

Leave it at bay they say

It’ll be okay

Get ahold of yourself it'll be fine

They showed me choices

They sold me binds and poisons

Progress - Rebounds, I’m going around and around now

I’m rarely in my state of mind

I’m faded maybe I’ll take my time

I’m rarely in my state of mind

I’m faded maybe you'll see this time

This is all I know

Another rabbit hole

Try to make my way out

But I’m falling down

When I try to let go

I lose all control

Got to make it out

While I'm wide awake

It feels like

The weights on me

And I can't breath but still I

Break away from what brings me shame

When it's all over

Till I wake to the same day

And its over my shoulder

I know I can't be like that

I will not turn back

I look down at what comes for me

And I take a round

As hidden shadows just lurk the reefs

Of my own mind

I’m rarely in my state of mind

I’m faded maybe I’ll take my time

I’m rarely in my state of mind

I’m faded maybe you'll see this time

This is all I know

Another rabbit hole

Try to make my way out

But I’m falling down

When I try to let go

I lose all control

Got to make it out

While I'm wide awake

Tell me all about it

How words froze at your lips

I don’t want to believe you’d say that

(I'm drowning now)

Tell me all about it

How you stood and went stiff

While I’m trapped in the ceiling with no way out

Medicated, aggravated, I think I’ve lost my mind

Self sedated, by these  pills man I feel I’m not alive

When everyday is a struggle I feel like giving up

But I just got to dig deep and know that i'll be strong enough

This muscle tension that keeps in question my riddled mind

I hate these pills that I take I feel i'm so confined

Blood clot and shot with these constant thoughts that I'm wrong for

Clouds I don't ask for I'm limb torn