Everything I Wanted

Left myself on the island Didn't even try to fight it Now I wake up blue Pulling out my hair And I pick on you Handle me with care Left my mind in a dark place I can't correct my mistakes Now I wake up red Never speak a word Staying in my head It's what I deserve I can't ignore All of the signs I've had this feeling before And I can't take Back all the times I've taken the blame When it wasn't mine No it wasn't mine Need something else Need something else Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic I tell myself I tell myself That it's everything I wanted Everything I wanted Everything I wanted Lost myself in this city Trying to make myself busy So I threw myself right into the crowd Cause I needed help Should've asked around I can't ignore All of the signs I've had this feeling before And I can't take Back all the times I've taken the blame When it wasn't mine No it wasn't mine Need something else Need something else Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic I tell myself I tell myself That it's everything I wanted Everything I wanted Everything I wanted I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself I tell myself That it's everything I wanted