House With The Blue Door

I used to envy friends who moved house a lot They could leave the trauma scattered back at the old spots But if you grew up in a house of God Was His ear against the wall When you got caught Putting your makeup on All my life, I spent in this house I eat, I sleep, wake up – then freak out All my life I spent it in doubt I come out when you come around When I came out, I only I got more lost They made me pick a side, the way you do with a coin toss Did the preaching give me a fear of God? Only nine years old at school When teacher caught me with my makeup on All my life, I spent in this house I eat, I sleep, wake up – then freak out All my life I spent it in doubt I come out when you come around All my life, I spent in this house I eat, I sleep, wake up – then freak out All my life I spent it in doubt I come out when you come around 2001, then I turned 21 Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood 2001, then I turned 21 Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood 2001, then I turned 21 Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood 2001, then I turned 21 Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood All my life, I spent in this house All my life I spent it in doubt All my life, I spent in this house All my life I spent it in doubt I come out when you come around Holding hands under tables Learning to unlearn all the fables Cycles always getting enabled All the things I am afraid of They're made up They're made up