House With The Blue Door

I used to envy friends who moved house a lot
They could leave the trauma scattered back at the old spots
But if you grew up in a house of God
Was His ear against the wall
When you got caught
Putting your makeup on

All my life, I spent in this house
I eat, I sleep, wake up – then freak out
All my life I spent it in doubt
I come out when you come around

When I came out, I only I got more lost
They made me pick a side, the way you do with a coin toss
Did the preaching give me a fear of God?
Only nine years old at school
When teacher caught me with my makeup on

All my life, I spent in this house
I eat, I sleep, wake up – then freak out
All my life I spent it in doubt
I come out when you come around

All my life, I spent in this house
I eat, I sleep, wake up – then freak out
All my life I spent it in doubt
I come out when you come around

2001, then I turned 21
Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood
2001, then I turned 21
Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood
2001, then I turned 21
Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood
2001, then I turned 21
Got the world in my hands, in my bones, in my blood

All my life, I spent in this house
All my life I spent it in doubt
All my life, I spent in this house
All my life I spent it in doubt
I come out when you come around

Holding hands under tables
Learning to unlearn all the fables
Cycles always getting enabled
All the things I am afraid of
They're made up
They're made up