Monochrome

[Verse 1] I'm trying to survive these strange days This life can be such an adventure The world stands before my eyes Wilder than it has ever been I forgot these old memories of youth That were caught right under the surface Forgot these souvenirs of you That were calling back the pain [Chorus] I never felt happy somehow But I'm trying, I'm trying the best I can I really wanna feel happy sometimes Really wanna know where the lights are But it only feels so wrong It's eating me alive [Verse 2] I never know how to shorten the distance Between my heart and my head 'Cause through my eyes, the days are monochrome I wanna feel the light of a new day But I'm so scared of it all... I'm scared this utter joy ain't lasting forever It's eating me alive [Bridge] It's eating me alive [Chorus] I never felt happy somehow But I'm trying, I'm trying the best I can I really wanna feel happy sometimes Really wanna know where the lights are But it only feels so wrong It's eating me alive [Outro] I'm trying to survive my feelings The joy is the ghost of a wanderer Lost somewhere outside of here Counting every hour