Self-Loathing Conversation

In another lonely conversation Looking at you for inspiration I see your resistance hiding in the distance When I go pop your papa's prescriptions Never ever settled in a final location Always on the move with my little lady So they won't know me, so they won't loathe me When they just close my casket so slowly And you, I'd only lose I'd only lose you And you, I'd only lose I'd only lose you Can anybody hear me? So tired and I can't sleep I try so hard but I'm in too deep So cut me off of my noose No other way that I'd choose I try so hard but I always lose I always lose All my life is contemplating Either make money or make some babies Living life easy or with the family Making ends meet and meet mediocrity I see your silent hesitation A little head nod as confirmation One step in the ocean, the other to divorcing Moving the kids to a corner apartment And you, I'd only lose I'd only lose you And you, I'd only lose I'd only lose you Can anybody hear me? So tired and I can't sleep I try so hard but I'm in too deep So cut me off of my noose No other way that I'd choose I try so hard but I always lose I always lose I'm lonely too, I'm lonely too I know that you are lonely too I'm lonely too I always lose