Self-Loathing Conversation

In another lonely conversation
Looking at you for inspiration
I see your resistance hiding in the distance
When I go pop your papa's prescriptions
Never ever settled in a final location
Always on the move with my little lady
So they won't know me, so they won't loathe me
When they just close my casket so slowly
And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose you
And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose you
Can anybody hear me?
So tired and I can't sleep
I try so hard but I'm in too deep
So cut me off of my noose
No other way that I'd choose
I try so hard but I always lose
I always lose
All my life is contemplating
Either make money or make some babies
Living life easy or with the family
Making ends meet and meet mediocrity
I see your silent hesitation
A little head nod as confirmation
One step in the ocean, the other to divorcing
Moving the kids to a corner apartment
And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose you
And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose you
Can anybody hear me?
So tired and I can't sleep
I try so hard but I'm in too deep
So cut me off of my noose
No other way that I'd choose
I try so hard but I always lose
I always lose
I'm lonely too, I'm lonely too
I know that you are lonely too
I'm lonely too
I always lose