Feel Safe

I keep chasin' this high, but I can't seem to catch it Hit a fork in the road, man, I don't ever listen I keep exposin' the truth, but live my life, a lie Behind these closed doors, they don't see the war inside Now, momma gettin' older, my heart keeps growin' colder No sense of urgency, but I been fightin' like a soldier I need some discipline, accept the fact that shit is over Watchin' people fallin', like the leaves in mid-October I'm a victim to my thoughts, as I slave away If I continue on like this, I'll fuckin' blow my brains Have I gone insane? I'm losin' all my patience Stuck in traffic, I got anger issues, can't contain 'em You'll project your insecurities onto the next Put up a barrier, which makes it hard to love again Serve and protect, been a struggle tryna make amends So outrageous, what I'm sayin' as I lay in bed These stress levels, not healthy There ain't really much that you could tell me Lately, can't explain, wanna run away Someplace I can go, where I feel safe These stress levels, not healthy There ain't really much that you could tell me Lately, can't explain, wanna run away Someplace I can go, where I feel safe Plot and schemin', then I execute another record Not motivated mentally, I live inside a prison Do numbers matter, if your happiness ain't in the question? My OCD has got me triggered, now I'm second-guessin' No chance I am complacent, that's such a honest statement I'm bringin' value to the table, but forgot to mention How I been smokin', try to cope, but though it's temporary I need a permanent solution, not the cemetery Why explain it? You don't listen, maybe I'ma burden You say you there for me, but you ain't there when I am hurtin' These walls are talkin', man, I swear to God that I can hear 'em Nothin' is appealin', like it used to be, I'm tired of bleedin' Don't want your sympathy, I don't even want your help Cut negativity, now I don't got nobody else I play the role so good, that they don't see the mask, itself Hate my reflection, that's the reason that I live in hell These stress levels, not healthy There ain't really much that you could tell me Lately, can't explain, wanna run away Someplace I can go, where I feel safe These stress levels, not healthy There ain't really much that you could tell me Lately, can't explain, wanna run away Someplace I can go, where I feel safe Through the storm, movin' forward, yes, I'm still standin' By the grace of God and willpower, I've managed Pickin' up the pieces, I can never solve this puzzle Without failure, can't succeed, no wonder why I struggle Far from perfect, but improvin' on a daily basis Physically, I'm here, but spiritually, I should awaken Overstressin', overthinkin', pray it will get better One day I'ma win this war, but until then, I won't surrender Yeah These stress levels, not healthy There ain't really much that you could tell me, oh no Lately, can't explain, wanna run away, run away Someplace I can go, where I feel safe These stress levels, not healthy, not healthy There ain't really much that you could tell me, that you could tell me Lately, can't explain, wanna run away, wanna run away Someplace I can go, where I feel safe Oh-oh Eh-eh Oh-oh, ohh-ohh Eh-eh, ehh-ehh