Feel Safe

I keep chasin' this high, but I can't seem to catch it
Hit a fork in the road, man, I don't ever listen
I keep exposin' the truth, but live my life, a lie
Behind these closed doors, they don't see the war inside

Now, momma gettin' older, my heart keeps growin' colder
No sense of urgency, but I been fightin' like a soldier
I need some discipline, accept the fact that shit is over
Watchin' people fallin', like the leaves in mid-October

I'm a victim to my thoughts, as I slave away
If I continue on like this, I'll fuckin' blow my brains
Have I gone insane? I'm losin' all my patience
Stuck in traffic, I got anger issues, can't contain 'em

You'll project your insecurities onto the next
Put up a barrier, which makes it hard to love again
Serve and protect, been a struggle tryna make amends
So outrageous, what I'm sayin' as I lay in bed

These stress levels, not healthy
There ain't really much that you could tell me
Lately, can't explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go, where I feel safe

These stress levels, not healthy
There ain't really much that you could tell me
Lately, can't explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go, where I feel safe

Plot and schemin', then I execute another record
Not motivated mentally, I live inside a prison
Do numbers matter, if your happiness ain't in the question?
My OCD has got me triggered, now I'm second-guessin'

No chance I am complacent, that's such a honest statement
I'm bringin' value to the table, but forgot to mention
How I been smokin', try to cope, but though it's temporary
I need a permanent solution, not the cemetery

Why explain it? You don't listen, maybe I'ma burden
You say you there for me, but you ain't there when I am hurtin'
These walls are talkin', man, I swear to God that I can hear 'em
Nothin' is appealin', like it used to be, I'm tired of bleedin'

Don't want your sympathy, I don't even want your help
Cut negativity, now I don't got nobody else
I play the role so good, that they don't see the mask, itself
Hate my reflection, that's the reason that I live in hell

These stress levels, not healthy
There ain't really much that you could tell me
Lately, can't explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go, where I feel safe

These stress levels, not healthy
There ain't really much that you could tell me
Lately, can't explain, wanna run away
Someplace I can go, where I feel safe

Through the storm, movin' forward, yes, I'm still standin'
By the grace of God and willpower, I've managed
Pickin' up the pieces, I can never solve this puzzle
Without failure, can't succeed, no wonder why I struggle

Far from perfect, but improvin' on a daily basis
Physically, I'm here, but spiritually, I should awaken
Overstressin', overthinkin', pray it will get better
One day I'ma win this war, but until then, I won't surrender
Yeah

These stress levels, not healthy
There ain't really much that you could tell me, oh no
Lately, can't explain, wanna run away, run away
Someplace I can go, where I feel safe

These stress levels, not healthy, not healthy
There ain't really much that you could tell me, that you could tell me
Lately, can't explain, wanna run away, wanna run away
Someplace I can go, where I feel safe

Oh-oh
Eh-eh
Oh-oh, ohh-ohh
Eh-eh, ehh-ehh