Ready to Leave

[Intro] It takes a real man to look in the mirror Recognize his flaws, accept his flaws And then change his flaws, yo [Verse 1] Self-centered, chauvinistic Wealth hindered, most statistic A few truthful labels accepting my soul [?] I've fornicated, not mourned over hatred Knew I was doing wrong and I swore it was greatness [?] many people for the sake of my own Robbed and stolen not even for the sake of my home I am reckless, violent, sexist, silent A crash course collision with no source of vision An unfaithful male, unfocused father Ungrateful tales of hopeless [?] A mishap birthplace, miss that worst case Worst day of my life every year is my birthday I can't even kiss my chick the same I can't even grip her hips the same But God is listening and I ask Him to change me now And if not that, then take me now [Hook: Macho] I'm ready to leave My life ain't worth living [?] existing This place where I was trusted 'cause I been doing wrong My girl, my fam, my friends, sold them all out for money Can't look in the mirror no more for fear of what I got in store [Verse 2: Propaganda] I knew she was married, knew better Knew other women, news is I just became what I refused to be I'll spare you the details and cut to the conclusion Ran out of excuses, can't use "I'm only human" I tried to fight it like choice was a factor But you can't put a band-aid on cancer Wrong answer and life just proved it Ain't never let a tool click But been so judgmental on souls I've left bruises Earned my position of man on the third cross I say I'm through lying but call me on it, I'll deny it Shattered dreams and promises, a closed-minded hypocrite All the while standing in the pulpit [Hook: Macho] I'm ready to leave My life ain't worth living [?] existing This place where I was trusted 'cause I been doing wrong My girl, my fam, my friends, sold them all out for money Can't look in the mirror no more for fear of what I got in store [Verse 3: ] 1989, heavenly light shine Revelation on my mind of thirteen years And though I had preludes to the truth Before with my knees on the floor Tears on my eyes, it's never been this clear And these pages of life turned I succeed, I feel like it burned I fall short, I grow, and I learn It all leads to the present day Presently I hesitantly engage in heavenly activities I can't remember last time I prayed for real Not just catchy phrases that my mind can spill at will I'm a crafty cat skilled in making people feel And what's crazy, I mean, so amazing Is that I can change this in the blink of an eye I could pick up my [?] book, read in silence and talk Rededicate my heart, that's the reason that Christ died But still I choose to lose myself in this endless night So do I really wanna change my life? [Hook] I'm ready to leave My life ain't worth living [?] existing This place where I was trusted 'cause I been doing wrong My girl, my fam, my friends, sold them all out for money Can't look in the mirror no more for fear of what I got in store Part 2 [Verse 4: Propaganda] Concept driven, bomb threat killing Insight for [?] rhyming nicer Bring your best, I bet that fool's a biter Sound so similar, y'all is immature Left to my own, I learned to own my own Time signature, perfect picture Came to get your hands up Creative minds everywhere stand up