Heavy Moon

I've been sleeping in 'til late Worried about what to say When friends ask me how I'm doing Just smile, "I'm okay." I'd hate to bring you down this rabbit hole with me Of unwashed clothes and bloodshot eyes And a head far too heavy I don't need your fucking sympathy Just want you to hate myself as much.. As much as I hate me I blame the heavy moon A cold shower to shock the nerves But that shit doesn't work When you can't feel anything anyway And that new leaf never turns I'm sick of feeling like I don't fucking fit in So I mark myself permenantly And let the ink speak through my skin I don't need your fucking sympathy Just want you to hate myself as much.. As much as I hate.. Grinding my teeth Feeling weak at the knees I shut my eyes But it seems like I keep twisting the knife They stop and they stare Just let me be When will this gloom stop looming over me? I blame the heavy moon Held down, not against my own will The bottom tastes better than I think it should It's intoxicating, but it kills anything inside that's good Admit it, not feeling alright I don't need your sympathy Going through these motions, it's just a part of life But it seems like I keep twisting the knife They stop and they stare Just let me be When will this gloom stop looming over me? I can't blame the heavy moon (anymore)