Heavy Moon

I've been sleeping in 'til late

Worried about what to say

When friends ask me how I'm doing

Just smile, "I'm okay."

I'd hate to bring you down this rabbit hole with me

Of unwashed clothes and bloodshot eyes

And a head far too heavy

I don't need your fucking sympathy

Just want you to hate myself as much..

As much as I hate me

I blame the heavy moon

A cold shower to shock the nerves

But that shit doesn't work

When you can't feel anything anyway

And that new leaf never turns

I'm sick of feeling like I don't fucking fit in

So I mark myself permenantly

And let the ink speak through my skin

I don't need your fucking sympathy

Just want you to hate myself as much..

As much as I hate..

Grinding my teeth

Feeling weak at the knees

I shut my eyes

But it seems like I keep twisting the knife

They stop and they stare

Just let me be

When will this gloom stop looming over me?

I blame the heavy moon

Held down, not against my own will

The bottom tastes better than I think it should

It's intoxicating, but it kills anything inside that's good

Admit it, not feeling alright

I don't need your sympathy

Going through these motions, it's just a part of life

But it seems like I keep twisting the knife

They stop and they stare

Just let me be

When will this gloom stop looming over me?

I can't blame the heavy moon

(anymore)