Red Ice

I don't know if it's the desert Or a bedroom full of dust It plays on repeat, I wonder What could have become of us It's too late, this disaster's Too heavy for closure How did I become this numb? If I could blame the rain For washing out the feel If I could blame the wind For bending what was real I'd blame the moon For every wound I heal But I blame you For burying the best of me I swallowed every word you said Like holy water poisoned in my veins I felt them rise up to my throat, but they choked in my chest The walls talk It tells the story of what this love could have been I swear this room knows the shape of my back now I trace the cracks left by our sins Bend me, break me to feed your self-esteem Come and dance with me Throw me, crush me, bring me down to my knees, smother me But I still breathe Woke up, you're gone Some would say it's just part of my fate I say you carved this into me with the tip of your nail The white turned red now I stand still while The silence starts to break If I could blame the rain For washing out the feel If I could blame the wind For bending what was real I'd blame the moon For every wound I heal But I blame you For burying the best of me