Red Ice

I don't know if it's the desert
Or a bedroom full of dust
It plays on repeat, I wonder
What could have become of us

It's too late, this disaster's
Too heavy for closure
How did I become this numb?

If I could blame the rain
For washing out the feel
If I could blame the wind
For bending what was real
I'd blame the moon
For every wound I heal
But I blame you
For burying the best of me

I swallowed every word you said
Like holy water poisoned in my veins
I felt them rise up to my throat, but they choked in my chest
The walls talk

It tells the story of what this love could have been
I swear this room knows the shape of my back now
I trace the cracks left by our sins

Bend me, break me to feed your self-esteem
Come and dance with me
Throw me, crush me, bring me down to my knees, smother me
But I still breathe
Woke up, you're gone
Some would say it's just part of my fate
I say you carved this into me with the tip of your nail

The white turned red now
I stand still while
The silence starts to break

If I could blame the rain
For washing out the feel
If I could blame the wind
For bending what was real
I'd blame the moon
For every wound I heal
But I blame you
For burying the best of me