[Verse 1]
Spending too much of my youth in a room
'Boutta turn twenty, all I've wanted was a view
That doesn't look out to my hometown
And doesn't make me think I fucked up 'cause I ain't going to school now
Academic kid, but I knew better than to sit myself in lectures
Where everyone around me got depression
And I got the impression, the teachers teaching lessons
We’re only teaching lessons 'cause they're scared to takе adventures
And the rеal world isn't fucking real
And you don't need to have kids, you don't need to do a thing
You don't need to get married, neither be carried in a casket
When I die, please blow me up, and throw me in a lake
Right now I wanna be in Adelaide, yeah, posted up with Kaide
Or maybe in L.A., most my favorite people from there
Does that make me weird?
[Verse 2]
Look, I couldn't distribute with AWAL
Most of the people that I look up to had deals at my age
And I a demon in the cage or just an angel in the wrong place
Angel in the wrong place I've bloomed
But I've rooted in the soil that is doomed
I wish my life feels like the movie that it once was
But there's no characters or storyline and I'm waking up at noon
And I got not a thing to do, I've walked this town through all it's hues, I know
Every smell that's coming out this God damn suburb
I know people that are racist and they're really poorly referenced
Talking like it's safe with me but talk 'bout who I'm friends with
Wanna make amends with the ones that do you wrong
Then they do you wrong again, two rights gon' write my songs
I wanna feel how it feels to have a crowd sing my song
And still wanna sing along when it's twenty years on
I been going through this struggle for three years and a minute
Riding in the same routes and writing the same lyrics
[Verse 3]
I wanna connect, I wanna exist, wanna do things away from home
Talk on the net, but it means nothing to me when the place that I'm living is dead
Don't got no ex, don't got no feelings to entertain
I ain't got nothing to do with this place, I'm leaving this place and going insane
I got future famous friends and I got famous future friends
In Mercedes Benz recording songs away from trends
Know I'm gonna trend, I guess were nothing but a trend
They love you for a minute and then they move on to the next
Half of growing up is knowing younger you was wrong
I'm just happy I was right about writing all these songs
A week before my album dropped I had to deal with bullshit
A week before my album dropped I had to deal with narcissists
A week before exams I got my second round of trauma
Accepting permanence was the only way forward
When I went to uni' they told me to calm it down
Not the personality, you know I'm calm, they meant my sounds
Said I wouldn't be successful if I wouldn't be conventional
Dropped the Bluebird Project, all the chaos was intentional
Shows out in London and recording out in Manny
Flying to L.A. and to the bay, the beaches sandy
Trick or treat in Sacramento, real U.S. candy
Learning 'bout the world and still climbing lake mountains
Doing every single thing that no one in this fucking town did
But still end up in the room I have my breakdowns in
[Outro]
Yeah, hehe, ugh... (Ooh-ooh-ooh-oooh)
(Ah, ah, ah ah ah-ah a—)
—whether or not who it's about
The song's by Rimera, the song is called "BELLY FERLICE"
I don't know what that means but I'm, I'm, I'm all here for—
