NINETEEN

[Verse 1]

Spending too much of my youth in a room

'Boutta turn twenty, all I've wanted was a view

That doesn't look out to my hometown

And doesn't make me think I fucked up 'cause I ain't going to school now

Academic kid, but I knew better than to sit myself in lectures

Where everyone around me got depression

And I got the impression, the teachers teaching lessons

We’re only teaching lessons 'cause they're scared to takе adventures

And the rеal world isn't fucking real

And you don't need to have kids, you don't need to do a thing

You don't need to get married, neither be carried in a casket

When I die, please blow me up, and throw me in a lake

Right now I wanna be in Adelaide, yeah, posted up with Kaide

Or maybe in L.A., most my favorite people from there

Does that make me weird?

[Verse 2]

Look, I couldn't distribute with AWAL

Most of the people that I look up to had deals at my age

And I a demon in the cage or just an angel in the wrong place

Angel in the wrong place I've bloomed

But I've rooted in the soil that is doomed

I wish my life feels like the movie that it once was

But there's no characters or storyline and I'm waking up at noon

And I got not a thing to do, I've walked this town through all it's hues, I know

Every smell that's coming out this God damn suburb

I know people that are racist and they're really poorly referenced

Talking like it's safe with me but talk 'bout who I'm friends with

Wanna make amends with the ones that do you wrong

Then they do you wrong again, two rights gon' write my songs

I wanna feel how it feels to have a crowd sing my song

And still wanna sing along when it's twenty years on

I been going through this struggle for three years and a minute

Riding in the same routes and writing the same lyrics

[Verse 3]

I wanna connect, I wanna exist, wanna do things away from home

Talk on the net, but it means nothing to me when the place that I'm living is dead

Don't got no ex, don't got no feelings to entertain

I ain't got nothing to do with this place, I'm leaving this place and going insane

I got future famous friends and I got famous future friends

In Mercedes Benz recording songs away from trends

Know I'm gonna trend, I guess were nothing but a trend

They love you for a minute and then they move on to the next

Half of growing up is knowing younger you was wrong

I'm just happy I was right about writing all these songs

A week before my album dropped I had to deal with bullshit

A week before my album dropped I had to deal with narcissists

A week before exams I got my second round of trauma

Accepting permanence was the only way forward

When I went to uni' they told me to calm it down

Not the personality, you know I'm calm, they meant my sounds

Said I wouldn't be successful if I wouldn't be conventional

Dropped the Bluebird Project, all the chaos was intentional

Shows out in London and recording out in Manny

Flying to L.A. and to the bay, the beaches sandy

Trick or treat in Sacramento, real U.S. candy

Learning 'bout the world and still climbing lake mountains

Doing every single thing that no one in this fucking town did

But still end up in the room I have my breakdowns in

[Outro]

Yeah, hehe, ugh... (Ooh-ooh-ooh-oooh)

(Ah, ah, ah ah ah-ah a—)

—whether or not who it's about

The song's by Rimera, the song is called "BELLY FERLICE"

I don't know what that means but I'm, I'm, I'm all here for—