Free Will and Testament

Given free will but within certain limitations I cannot will myself to limitless mutations I cannot know what I would be if I were not me I can only guess me So when I say that I know me, how can I know that? What kind of spider understands arachnophobia? I have my senses and my sense of having senses Do I guide them? Or they me? The weight of dust exceeds the weight of settled objects What can it mean, such gravity without a centre? Is there freedom to un-be? Is there freedom from will-to-be? Sheer momentum makes us act this way or that way We just invent or just assume a motivation I would disperse, be disconnected. Is this possible? What are soldiers without a foe? Be in the air, but not be air, be in the no air Be on the loose, neither compacted nor suspended Neither born nor left to die Had I been free, I could have chosen not to be me Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill Demented forces push me madly round a treadmill Let me off please, I am so tired Let me off please, I am so very tired