Numb

[5 Stages Of Grief] [Stage I Denial] [Intro] Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb I keep on running not sure what its from No matter what I do it’s never enough Wonder what happens if I give this up [Pre Verse] This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb This pressure is building and I might succumb I've gone for the next step but somehow I’m stuck I wonder what happens if I give this up [Verse 1] Another day another headache Trying to figure out what to do with all the dead weight Bottled up some problems I had and all of that led straight To a couple of curveballs that I threw that I never set straight I've been chasing dreams for a motherfucking decade Damn, and it still feels like a nightmare I don't try to bitch, homie I know life don't fight fair I put it in a song hoping that somebody might care Cause I put it all on the line, all of the time And it still isn't falling in line, I call to the sky Wonder why I'm in stalling cause I saw all the signs That destiny was calling and I've been starting my mind That this is all that I got, this is my motherfucking purpose Why do I feel lost, so stuck under the surface It's coming at a cost so I go to sleep nervous I’m waking up angry, is this shit worth it It’s feeling like a burden I used to look in the mirror and see benefits Now I'm looking in the mirror at my nemesis That’s enough to get me pumping with adrenaline Doc's saying I need sedatives and medicine Anxiety and depression they've been setting in That shit sends shivers down my skeleton They've been knocking on my door and I might let them in [Pre-Chorus] This liquor I’m chasing got me feeling numb This pressure is building and I might succumb I've gone for the next step but somehow I'm stuck I wonder what happens if I give this up [Stage II Anger] [Chorus] Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb I keep on running not sure what its from No matter what I do it's never enough I wonder what happens if I give this up [Stage III Bargaining] [Verse 2] Was never a bitch, that's just not in my breed So it's bad I've eroded I'm down on my knees Something's stealing my breath now it's harder to breathe So I write it all down and I finally bleed All the cuts and the wounds I collect Been through all kinds of depths for the world to recover I'm a martyr of sorts and that's selling it short Now I wonder if dying in wonder Is it better than all of the pain 'Cause there's not been a day that I haven't seen rain Psychology states that if I stay in this state Than I'll probably fuck up my brain Every day waking up drained And I was asleep but I still feel the same I'm feeling insane, I search for the words I could never explain Thought this life really isn't as good as they claim I'm certain they're plotting in my head to eat me alive It swallows me whole but it's unsatisfied Consumed by the thoughts that I'm having to hide They feed on the pressure, I breathe in the lies In search for the words I'm unlikely to speak My mouths stapled shut so I scream in my sleep Never would of thought this was how it would be A nightmare to live in a dream Oakes [Stage IV Depression] [Pre-Chorus] This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb This pressure is building and I might succumb I've gone for the next step but somehow I'm stuck I wonder what happens if I give this up [Chorus] Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb I keep on running not sure what its from No matter what I do it's never enough Wonder what happens if I give this up [Stage V Acceptance]