Numb

[5 Stages Of Grief]

[Stage I Denial]

[Intro]

Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb

I keep on running not sure what its from

No matter what I do it’s never enough

Wonder what happens if I give this up

[Pre Verse]

This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb

This pressure is building and I might succumb

I've gone for the next step but somehow I’m stuck

I wonder what happens if I give this up

[Verse 1]

Another day another headache

Trying to figure out what to do with all the dead weight

Bottled up some problems I had and all of that led straight

To a couple of curveballs that I threw that I never set straight

I've been chasing dreams for a motherfucking decade

Damn, and it still feels like a nightmare

I don't try to bitch, homie I know life don't fight fair

I put it in a song hoping that somebody might care

Cause I put it all on the line, all of the time

And it still isn't falling in line, I call to the sky

Wonder why I'm in stalling cause I saw all the signs

That destiny was calling and I've been starting my mind

That this is all that I got, this is my motherfucking purpose

Why do I feel lost, so stuck under the surface

It's coming at a cost so I go to sleep nervous

I’m waking up angry, is this shit worth it

It’s feeling like a burden

I used to look in the mirror and see benefits

Now I'm looking in the mirror at my nemesis

That’s enough to get me pumping with adrenaline

Doc's saying I need sedatives and medicine

Anxiety and depression they've been setting in

That shit sends shivers down my skeleton

They've been knocking on my door and I might let them in

[Pre-Chorus]

This liquor I’m chasing got me feeling numb

This pressure is building and I might succumb

I've gone for the next step but somehow I'm stuck

I wonder what happens if I give this up

[Stage II Anger]

[Chorus]

Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb

I keep on running not sure what its from

No matter what I do it's never enough

I wonder what happens if I give this up

[Stage III Bargaining]

[Verse 2]

Was never a bitch, that's just not in my breed

So it's bad I've eroded I'm down on my knees

Something's stealing my breath now it's harder to breathe

So I write it all down and I finally bleed

All the cuts and the wounds I collect

Been through all kinds of depths for the world to recover

I'm a martyr of sorts and that's selling it short

Now I wonder if dying in wonder

Is it better than all of the pain

'Cause there's not been a day that I haven't seen rain

Psychology states that if I stay in this state

Than I'll probably fuck up my brain

Every day waking up drained

And I was asleep but I still feel the same

I'm feeling insane, I search for the words I could never explain

Thought this life really isn't as good as they claim

I'm certain they're plotting in my head to eat me alive

It swallows me whole but it's unsatisfied

Consumed by the thoughts that I'm having to hide

They feed on the pressure, I breathe in the lies

In search for the words I'm unlikely to speak

My mouths stapled shut so I scream in my sleep

Never would of thought this was how it would be

A nightmare to live in a dream

Oakes

[Stage IV Depression]

[Pre-Chorus]

This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb

This pressure is building and I might succumb

I've gone for the next step but somehow I'm stuck

I wonder what happens if I give this up

[Chorus]

Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb

I keep on running not sure what its from

No matter what I do it's never enough

Wonder what happens if I give this up

[Stage V Acceptance]